Saturday Night, January 11

1) What an unexpectedly heavenly day! The predictions of the weathermen were for nought; instead, I took advantage of sunny, breezy, unusually temperate day by hiking through the arboretum.

1a) I did at least stick to the culinary part of my plan: to boil up a cauldron of soup this evening. That’s usually a cold-weather activity, but I’m still pleased with the results.

2) An unoriginal observation: My temper sometimes gets the better of me when political topics come up online. That doesn’t mean I’ve stopped hating myself for it, but there it is.

3) If there were two things my family enjoyed they were the comic strip For Better or For Worse, and the TV series Perry Mason. I grew up on the latter, which played as reruns at 12 noon every day during the summers. This Christmas I gave myself the first two seasons on DVD, and it has been an absolute delight going through them. Of course for me one of the great pleasures is recognizing character actors from earlier movies and shows. Shoot, Aunt Bea from Mayberry is almost a murder suspect herself in one episode! Karen Sharpe, Nancy Kulp (well before her cries of “Chief, chief!” on The Beverly Hillbillies), the actor who played the navigator with the drunk wife in The High and the Mighty, the actress who played the gorgeous blonde wife of the two-timing artist staying at Katharine Hepburn’s pensione in Summertime. Just fantastic.

Four British Films Mostly Pre-WWII

I have been talking enough about some (mostly) newly discovered British Films from Before I Was Born that it makes sense to do a page on all of them for Handy Future Reference.

The Scarlet Pimpernel (1934)

I first saw this film on television in high school (I think we must have taped it on the VCR!) and fell it love with for many different reasons: the use of Mozart’s A Little Night Music, Merle Oberon, Leslie Howard in soft focus, Mabel Terry-Lewis as the Comtesse de Tournay, and especially the scene in the prison when the day’s roll call for the guillotine takes place. Raymond Massey as the snarling Chauvelin is very much an added attraction! And Joan Gardner is gently delightful as Suzanne de Tournay, the flower of French girlhood.

Fire Over England (1937)

This is the first time Vivien Leigh and Laurence Olivier appeared together on screen, young, beautiful, and magnetic. And let’s face it, Flora Robson is Elizabeth I, whereas my beloved Bette Davis plays Elizabeth I as Bette Davis. Look for her speech on horseback! Raymond Massey shows up again as Philip of Spain.

Dark Journey (1937)

Vivien Leigh stars with Hollywood’s Future Favorite Nazi Conrad Veidt in an espionage thriller set during World War I but costumed in 1937. And fashion plays a big role in the espionage; Vivien runs a fashion house in Stockholm, selling gowns with coded messages sewn into them from the French that she shares with the Germans. Ursula Jeans and Margery Pickard appear as Vivien’s shop assistants, Gertrude (Austrian) and Colette (French), who get off some snappy dialogue. Gertrude: “Madame! Is it a crime to be German?” Colette: “Worse, it’s a vulgarity!”

Conrad Veidt has some wonderful scenes with “professional beauties” in a hotel bar, especially Joan Gardner as the Brazilian good time girl Lupita. Quite a contrast from her good girl role in Scarlet Pimpernel!

The Man in Grey (1943)

I just randomly looked this up on a whim a month or so ago, remembering that it was mentioned as one of James Mason’s early films in Ron Haver’s book about the restoration of George Cukor’s A Star Is Born. And it became an obsession for a couple weeks! Turns out this Regency-era romantic melodrama made stars of its four principals, especially James Mason and Stewart Granger. But I especially love Phyllis Calvert as Clarissa, and dashingly evil Margaret Lockwood. Look also for redoubtable Martita Hunt as the schoolmistress!

This was, I gather, one of the first of the Gainsborough melodramas made by Gainsborough Pictures that defined an era of popular British cinema. One important scene, a fistfight between James Mason and Stewart Granger, takes place at Vauxhall Gardens, an actual pleasure garden in London; it began life as Spring Gardens, to which Linda Darnell refers in Forever Amber.

Unfortunately, there is a white boy in blackface playing a servant - a theatrical convention that has not aged well for obvious reasons. Otherwise it’s a dashing delight.

OK, and one more: The Wicked Lady (1945)

The Man in Grey led me to another Gainsborough picture, The Wicked Lady, which I don’t actually like as much, but adds a lot of dash and brio to the screen. And Margaret Lockwood in man-drag as a highwayman is compellingly elegant!

So, enjoy!

Friday, December 27

1) Yesterday, Boxing Day, was the sleepiest day ever, as though I was competing in a Boston Lethargathon. The only useful things I did were bathe, go out to buy milk, and continue reading a wonderful Christmas present, John Waters’ new memoir Mr. Know-It-All.

2) Today promises to be more productive, thank goodness. Parlor coffee and devotional included this beautiful reading from my beloved The Art of Worldly Wisdom by Baltasar Gracian. It’s number 111: “Have friends. They are a second being. To a friend, all friends are good and wise. when you are with them, all turns out well. You are worht as much as others want you to be and say you are, and the way to their mouths likes through their hearts. Nothing bewitches like service to others, and the best way to win friends is to act like one. The most and best we have depends on others. You must live iether with friends or with enemies. Win one each day, if not as a confidant, at least as a follower. Choose well and some will remain whom you can trust.”

3) The most enduring practical lesson of Christmas 2019 is that poinsettias need sunlight even more than they need water. Earlier in December I bought a perfect poinsettia with almost a dozen small to medium white flowers, only to have it start going bald from the bottom up at home. Moral: open the blesséd drapes! Leaf loss has stopped since I started parking it in the windowsill during the sunniest parts of the day.

Friday Morning, December 13 - Important Readings

Some interesting things have popped out at me during my morning devotional this week:

1) I am so glad that I took Mother’s Interpreter’s Bible when we were cleaning out the house last March, because it includes her marginalia; it’s valuable to me to see what was meaningful, or prompted insight, to her. Right now I’m going through Luke. Beside Luke 8:47, “When the woman saw that she could not deceive him, she came trembling, and fell down and worshipped him; and she said i the presence of all the people for what purpose she had touched him, and how she was healed immediately,” Mother pencilled “She spoke the reason she needed Jesus.” I think it must have been the idea of a public declaration of one’s individual need for Christ that moved her to make that note.

1a) On a scrap of lined paper on the page before this she wrote in pencil “Luke 8:45-56 AFFECTION.”

2) Those were yesterday. Today, somewhat preoccupied with thoughts of world leaders, I came to Luke 9:25: “For how can a man be benefited, if he gain the whole world, but lose his own soul, or even weakens it?” How indeed!

3) And immediately afterward, from my beloved Gracian’s The Art of Worldly Wisdom, #106, something in the same vein: “Don’t flaunt your good fortune. It is more offensive to take excessive pride in your high office than in yourself. Don’t play the “great man” - it is odious - and don’t be proud of being envied. The more strenuously you seek esteem from others, the less of it you will have. It depends on respect. You can’t simply grab it, you have to deserve it and wait for it. Important occupations call for a certain gravity and decorum. Keep only what the occupation requires, what you need to fulfill your obligations. Don’t squeeze it dry; help it along . . . even a king ought to be venerated more because of his person than because of his pomp and circumstance.”

Thursday Morning, December 12 - Happiness

I feel ridiculously happy this morning. Why? WHY?!

1) My home sizzles with cleanness after a good vigorous cleaning yesterday. The sunshine coming through my parlor windows this morning emphasizes how cozy everything is, and also somehow that Christmas is coming.

2) At an arts-oriented meetup earlier this week I got to chat with a very nice Gentleman Younger Than I, and he sent me a Nice to Meet You email today.

3) I got a great reaction to yesterday’s column about unwanted casseroles, which I kind of wasn’t expecting.

4) Big surprise yesterday when I opened my back door to discover a cardboard box of a dozen pears - a Christmas gift from my old neighbors who moved out in June. Completely unexpected! Wasn’t that sweet of them?

5) I didn’t read the news yesterday at all. While I did take in some of the news this morning, somehow my good mood is impervious to it . . . today.

Saturday Morning, November 30

1) Awake early, candlelight parlor coffee and devotional. KJV Luke 1, C.S. Lewis daily (on the subject of pity), and the work habits of Igor Stravinsky from How Artists Work.

2) It is now officially the Christmas season! And because the Sunday forecast is a vigorous and snowy one, it means prioritizing assignments outside the house today and inside tomorrow.

2a) With it being the Christmas season now, that also makes it the official season for viewing the 1951 A Christmas Carol with Alastair Sim, after which you’ll never need to watch any of the others.

2a.1) Happily this also includes Hermione Baddeley as Mrs. Cratchit! (Children of my generation will remember her as Bea Arthur’s housekeeper Mrs. Naugatuck on Maude.)

3) At times I have an appalling knack for saying the exact wrong thing. I wish I knew where this came from.

BONUS: TFW your phone makes a sound that you’ve never heard, when you didn’t do anything, and you think it’s the Russians hacking your phone.

Friday, November 29 - The Morning After

1) Thank you, I had a lovely Thanksgiving with my Mayflower cousins ye Hychttes, a dozen of ‘em. I am one of the two Traditional Orphans to appear; the other, ye Lyndya, was also present, as well as a collection of young Europeans brought by one of the grandchildren.

1a) i baked a three-day cake, as I most often do, but the star dessert was without question a chocolate pie from a bakery in Florence so magnificent it nearly melted on the tongue. Mmphgh!

2) Now comes the dawn, and even though I took care not to overindulge (read: I didn’t have seconds), I am moving heavily.

3) And with the dawn, the dawning horror that we are now quite irrevocably in the season and I am not ready! On the plus side, I still have all the Christmas cards I didn’t send in 2018, and they’ll do beautifully for 2019. And I am excited to decorate my own home (which I rarely do) since I will actually be in it for Christmas Itself for the first time. But my goodness, so much to clear away before that can happen!

3a) It also seems that invitations sent to me via ye Fycebykke just whiz past me unnoticed, so I’m having a couple Whoopsie-doo Moments with Kind Friends. Aigh!

Friday, November 22 - Late-Night Thoughts

1) I’ve been away from most social media during the past week, except to post a column, and generally that’s been good.

2) Dining with a friend on Wednesday, the sudden horror of realizing that Thanksgiving is NEXT WEEK! How did that happen?!

2a) Thank goodness all I have to do is bake a cake and show up.

3) The contractor’s estimate for the kitchen renovation has come in. My first thought was that we are not going to get started in January, as I’d hoped. Next I remembered Robert Lawson’s definition of “estimate” from his amusing glossary of country life in WWII Connecticut, Country Colic. It begins: “A form of light fiction, generally in four parts, each increasing by 50%.”

3a) I am going to have to rethink some features of Howard Johnson’s at Versailles . . .

4) Yoga last Sunday, and last night (Thursday). Movement in my right leg has become stiffer, which indicates a need for . . . more yoga!

5) After maybe or maybe not being almost followed home one night last week, I was surprised when waiting to cross my street at the stoplight this afternoon to find two young men of high school age stop about two feet behind me. Usually the kids talk to each other, but these two, obviously together, did not. I grew the distance between us to the curb. When the walk light came on I continued on my way, and they were perhaps 6-10 feet behind me. One went into the corner hangout, the other slooooooooowly continued in my direction. He didn’t pass my house until I’d moved the trashcans back to their proper places and gone inside. Through the parlor window I saw him continue slowly down the street.

5a) Doyle’s closing means there’s less public traffic here, and I don’t think that’s a good thing.

6) This afternoon I finally started moving boxes from home out of the dining room, with only a bit of unpacking. But I found two bags of chicory coffee I’d bought last March - just as my supply in the freezer was running out!

Sunday, November 17 - In Review, Balancing Gratitude and Shadows

1) Quote of the Day One: First Timothy 2:1-2: “I beseech you, therefore, first of all to offer to God, petitions, prayers, supplications, and thanksgiving for all men, For kings and for all in authority; that we may life a quiet and peacable life, in purity and Godliness.” [emphasis Mother’s]

2) Quote of the Day Two: “Only by taking charge of your day-to-day can you truly make an impact in what matters most to you.” — Scott Belsky, in the foreword of Manage Your Day-to-Day

3) Now balance those with Gertrude in Hamlet - “O Hamlet, speak no more! Thou turn’st mine eyes into my very soul, And there I see such black and grainèd spots As will not leave their tinct.” - and Joan Crawford as Mildred Pierce: “Veda, I feel like I’m seeing you for the first time, and you’re cheap and horrible!” These are the kinds of dialogues I have with myself.

4) This morning I finally published a column that I’d been working on for awhile - it just didn’t come easily. But within ten minutes I’d gotten a complimentary response from a reader.

4a) That was followed a few hours later by a request to unsubscribe from my mailing list.

5) Grateful today for so many things: for publishing that column, for John Bel Edwards’ victory in the Home State, for actually having an avocado in the house when that’s what I wanted, for discovering quite by chance The Man in Grey with James Mason and Stewart Granger, which I’d read about in passing 30 years ago in Ronald Haver’s book about the 1954 A Star Is Born; for actually going to yoga, even if it kicked my ass.

6) But I fight back shadows, too, every day. I may need to embrace them to conquer them.